|Jenolan||:||After more than a month of missing the farm, the worst thing drinking water, miss our clean fresh rain water tanks every day. And the morning kookaburras, maggies, even the wombat|
|Jenolan||:||Weather for West Bathurst (our Endolin) is now active|
|Jenolan||:||We have named our new house Endolin ... see if you can work out the reference. Disney movie, computer based, debug mode on.|
|Jenolan||:||Last day on our beloved farm in to town Monday|
|Jenolan||:||The weather station will not update any more, until/unless we setup one at our new home in Bathurst. Once settled in there may be an interesting announcement --- or not --- depending on how things end up.|
|Jenolan||:||New blog: Round and round the round about|
|Jenolan||:||News: CESS V0.14 --- Munge|
|shenley||:||Best wishes to you both. Hope the move works out well for you. Stay well. Best wishes. Peter|
|Jenolan||:||New blog: Moving into Bathurst|
|Jenolan||:||For the first time in many years Helen had to buy eggs, ug no more super tasty home reared chook eggs|
Living with chooks and the feral rabbits trying to grow vegetables can be a trial and frustration ... oh forgot when the sheep get in there goes the lot. So for a while now we have been planning an enclosure to keep the critters out and allow for us to actually eat the stuff we grow! Helen also wanted raised beds, which are really necessary the soil is pretty useless for anything but grass as it is all shale just below the surface.
The problem (always) is that nothing is flat here so job one was making a level spot, the final result may not show it but there were about 50 scoops of the top removed to get a 4x4 meter square reasonably flat, then there was the boundary sleepers which all needed to be joined (remember the slope issues) in the course of building the main house water pipe was broken and the garden water one too (it is dam water dropped into a tank for outside use). Then we had to build and fill all of the beds, thank goodness for a tractor huh! 8 cubic meters of vegemix, when we did that had to fix the sleepers as the tractor disturbed them, and yes I remembered NOT to do the coach bolts until that was done. Then it was on with the cage and we are now ready to grow vegetables that we will eat!
The tomato seedling was ceremoniously planted as the first resident (and was pelted by hail not long after when we had a humongous storm).
View from outside, notice the killer chooks
Looking up from the house
Today is R'U'Okay day ... it is a wonderful idea I suppose but as someone who has struggled with serious depression for most of my life it just seems like another feel good rather than anything meaningful. Seriously ... although I have been reasonably 'stable' for about 5 years with my current medication I can tell you that simply opening your eyes for a new day is not a joy. Every day is a struggle to try and not think dark thoughts, let alone try and think one happy thought.
You might be surprised, but I can go a day, week, month or more without even a chuckle let alone a moment of joy. To me a day is a success if I do not think that I should just not exist and rest. Helen is my life and my only anchor, happiness to me is something that you see on TV (if at all) people survive, sometimes regardless of the impediments, that does not mean that life is enjoyable each day is simply another excruciatingly painful experience.
One day is irrelevant, meaningless, demeaning ... one day is how we live, every damn day, not giving up, waking up to no joy, to no happiness, trying as hard as we can not not make other people's day a misery while we continue on in a life that has nothing except maybe that one person who makes you partially hooman, who regardless of your long silences, and dark looks still gives you a smile.
One day! That's a life time to us.
You will have noticed that the work-in-progress coding has been removed and that it is all back to a straight Wordpress site. Simply it was taking too long, wasn't going to be finished in any foreseeable time frame and was just too hard.
No doubt there are some bits that are broken with the move back if you notice anything send me a note.