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Larry (Jenolan) Lewis

Coding is what defines me, especially when it doesn't… also.

Jenolan Caves

This is not Jenolan Caves, we use the Jenolan name because we love the Jenolan, Abercrombie, Wombeyan, & Yarrangobilly caves.

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  • 2015-09-10
    R'U'OK Day


    •  Jenolan

      Today is R'U'Okay day ... it is a wonderful idea I suppose but as someone who has struggled with serious depression for most of my life it just seems like another feel good rather than anything meaningful. Seriously ... although I have been reasonably 'stable' for about 5 years with my current medication I can tell you that simply opening your eyes for a new day is not a joy. Every day is a struggle to try and not think dark thoughts, let alone try and think one happy thought.

      You might be surprised, but I can go a day, week, month or more without even a chuckle let alone a moment of joy. To me a day is a success if I do not think that I should just not exist and rest. Helen is my life and my only anchor, happiness to me is something that you see on TV (if at all) people survive, sometimes regardless of the impediments, that does not mean that life is enjoyable each day is simply another excruciatingly painful experience.

      One day is irrelevant, meaningless, demeaning ... one day is how we live, every damn day, not giving up, waking up to no joy, to no happiness, trying as hard as we can not not make other people's day a misery while we continue on in a life that has nothing except maybe that one person who makes you partially hooman, who regardless of your long silences, and dark looks still gives you a smile.

      One day! That's a life time to us.

  • 2015-08-20
    Site setup


    •  Jenolan

      You will have noticed that the work-in-progress coding has been removed and that it is all back to a straight Wordpress site. Simply it was taking too long, wasn't going to be finished in any foreseeable time frame and was just too hard.

      No doubt there are some bits that are broken with the move back if you notice anything send me a note.

  • 2015-08-10
    RBR defunct


    •  Jenolan

      Well I waited for T:ANE to be sure, it totally did not excite me, as far as I can see it is pretty much just TS12 with a new game engine. Writing RBR style Activities in it would be ted-i-arse in the extreme and writing a compiler for it that would run on Windoze & Mac is simply more than I am prepared to even consider. It is a huge shame I really enjoyed writing Activities(Scenarios) and I also enjoyed building the various compilers/builders that the RBR crew used as well ... butt that's it kimosabe totally done absolutely with 'Trainz'.

      Just deleted the RBR domain name, the business name and trademarks were cancelled a while ago but it is finally all done. The compendium is still available and Norm's new stuff will stay but other than that we are dun!

  • 2015-04-25
    ANZAC


    •  Jenolan
      For all that they did, and for all they were never able to do, we remember. #LestWeForget

      Kevin Andrews at Villers-Bretonneux, France on this day.