|Jenolan||:||We have named our new house Endolin ... see if you can work out the reference. Disney movie, computer based, debug mode on.|
|Jenolan||:||Last day on our beloved farm in to town Monday|
|Jenolan||:||The weather station will not update any more, until/unless we setup one at our new home in Bathurst. Once settled in there may be an interesting announcement --- or not --- depending on how things end up.|
|Jenolan||:||New blog: Round and round the round about|
|Jenolan||:||News: CESS V0.14 --- Munge|
|shenley||:||Best wishes to you both. Hope the move works out well for you. Stay well. Best wishes. Peter|
|Jenolan||:||New blog: Moving into Bathurst|
|Jenolan||:||For the first time in many years Helen had to buy eggs, ug no more super tasty home reared chook eggs|
|shenley||:||Dear Larry and Helen, So sorry to hear of your loss of Lucy. We have had many cats over the years whom we have had the pleasure of 16-18 years each (all orphans, waifs and strays) and the loss of each and every one has hurt us dearly. We understand your loss and grief. Just be thankful for the time you had with her. Best wishes, Peter|
|Jenolan||:||New blog: Lucy RIP|
Today is R'U'Okay day ... it is a wonderful idea I suppose but as someone who has struggled with serious depression for most of my life it just seems like another feel good rather than anything meaningful. Seriously ... although I have been reasonably 'stable' for about 5 years with my current medication I can tell you that simply opening your eyes for a new day is not a joy. Every day is a struggle to try and not think dark thoughts, let alone try and think one happy thought.
You might be surprised, but I can go a day, week, month or more without even a chuckle let alone a moment of joy. To me a day is a success if I do not think that I should just not exist and rest. Helen is my life and my only anchor, happiness to me is something that you see on TV (if at all) people survive, sometimes regardless of the impediments, that does not mean that life is enjoyable each day is simply another excruciatingly painful experience.
One day is irrelevant, meaningless, demeaning ... one day is how we live, every damn day, not giving up, waking up to no joy, to no happiness, trying as hard as we can not not make other people's day a misery while we continue on in a life that has nothing except maybe that one person who makes you partially hooman, who regardless of your long silences, and dark looks still gives you a smile.
One day! That's a life time to us.